this raises the ultimate question about creativity ...

it was a shame to see the news of spalding gray’s death on the front page today. since he disappeared, i’d been hoping he’d turn up — in my often idealistic frame of mind, i’d hoped that he’d vanished for a bit to excise his demons and then return — perhaps even with a new play.

but alas, that is not the case. another brilliant, troubled playwright turns up dead. aurgh.

but it made me think again of the question that has popped up with increasing frequency over the past month and a half. if someone's creativity stems from sadness, heartbreak, etc. is it better for them to be unhappy and creative or happy and without material to write? had gray's life not been laced with suicide, depression and whatnot, would he have been as creative and, therefore, would he have influenced the arts in the manner he did?

and, speaking of disappearing acts: paul. drop a line or comment so i know you're still among the land of the living, ok? thank you.

one other thing - i need to start planning out the summer, as i have to get requested vacation time into the calendar. any ideas for trips/activites from now through july out there (also known as: anything planned and anyone up for a trip to california?) let me know ...