sad, sad world

status check - annoyed and/or disgusted
background ambiance - television, "superstar usa"

i used to like brian mcfayden. i admit it. like many others, i was impressed by him when he made his debut as a personality on mtv. i stopped watching, he disappeared. he reappeared on the arm of one of the hilton sisters (nicky, maybe?) and i still thought, "hey, he seemed cool, so it's all good."

but i'm rather embarrassed to have thought him decent. this show, set up to tell someone they're the worst singer in america, is horrible. i'm even disgusted that vitamin c (who isn't at the top of my favorites list anyway - damn your graduation song) is on it. what the hell is this?

anyway. i was also wondering what the hell was up with hearing nothing about "strip search" until i caught it on television last night (i can't WAIT for cable). the premise: two similar situations. an american student (maggie gyllenhaal!) in china and a muslim student in new york. both are brought in for interrogation. the same script is used for either plot.

i thought it was provoking and gripping - disturbling as hell, but i couldn't stop watching. but where's the press? oh wait, hbo pulled all the press on it. stupid, cowardly move.

and, to top it all off:

JIMMY, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

but on the other hand, i think i've heard one of the best musical movie reviews yet.

and finally, because it's all about me, me, me:

[three words that sum you up]: hidden, driven, silly
[jewelery worn daily]: earings of some sort, rune (communication) pendant, cladagh ring.
[wallet]: simple, black.
[coffee]: black, a couple of splendas, iced.
[shoes]: sandals, sneakers, professional if i have to be.
[cologne/perfume]: orange.
[clothing you have on]: pink shirt, dark charcoal pants.

—MIXED QUESTIONS—
[wishing]: for a good night's sleep.
[after this]: sleep.
[talking to]: you.
[eating]: popcicle.
[some favorite movies]: donnie darko, almost famous, lotr, old hollywood musicals.
[something you're looking forward to]: boston on thursday.
[last thing you ate]: popcicle ...
[something you’re afraid of]: not falling in love.
[if you could have any animal as a pet]: not sure.
[cities you wouldn’t mind moving to]: boston ... or other places i haven't been to yet.
[some favorite foods]: mexican, apples, veggies, hop sing.
[something (or someone) you wish you could understand better]: the list is endless. um ... reality?
[miss someone you haven't seen in a long time]: daniel, christopher, paul. ok, one of the three makes sense ...
—DO YOU...—
[like candles]: very much.
[like company]: yes.
[believe in soul mates]: i'd like to.
[believe in love at first sight]: no. but yes to lust.
[believe in forgiveness]: yes. but not forget.
[want to get married]: yes.
[want to have kids]: i think so.
[ever want to adopt kids]: perhaps.

—IN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU...—
[cried]: yes. but it was from laughing too hard.
[bought something]: yes.
[gotten sick]: not this monday, thank you!
[sang]: yes. very loudly.
[eaten]: yes.
[been kissed]: no.
[felt stupid]: yes.
[wanted to tell someone you love them, but you didn't]: no.
[talked to an ex]: no.
[talked to someone you have a crush on]: no.
[had a serious talk]: not really.
[missed someone]: yes.
[hugged someone]: yes.
[argued with a parent(s)]: no.
[dreamt about someone you can't be with]: no.
—SOCIAL LIFE—
[best girl friend(s)]: beth, becca, paula, michelle.
[best guy friend(s)]: tom, paul.
[boyfriend/girlfriend]: no.
[hobbies]: writing, singing, reading, laughing.
[pager/cell]: i swore i'd never become a mobile whore. oh well.
[are the you the center of attention or a wallflower]: depends.
[car you drive]: it is the red farewell tour, baby.
[would you rather be with friends or on a date]: friends.
[job]: journalista.
[attend church]: only when i'm further condemming myself to hell.
[like being around people]: depends.

—PERSONAL—
[who is your role model]: don't have one.
[pet peeves]: selfishness, showboating, mindgames.
[ever liked someone you can't be with]: hi, welcome to my life.
[ever wanted to get revenge on someone cause they hurt you]: naturally.
[cried over the opposite sex]: naturally.
[your favorite physical appearance]: my eyes.
[are you happy with yourself]: eh.
[what plans do you have for the future]: too many to count.
[who do you really hate]: fame mongers who haven't earned it in the first place? i'm not much of a hater.
[who's your most trustworthy family member]: my brother.

Abortion?: pro-choice.
Death Penalty?: against.
Alcohol?: within reason. but i now protest the existance of kamakazi shots.
Marijuana?: apply same standards as alcohol, already. whatever.
Other drugs?: troublemakers.
Gay marriage?: good call, massachusetts.
Illegal immigrants?: tricky call.
Drunk driving?: stupid move.
Cloning?: still deciding.
Racism?: against.
Premarital sex?: do what you will.
Religion?: condemned (reality: not sure).
The war in Iraq?: ANTI.
Bush?: great set at woodstock. oh, i mean ... anti.
Downloading music?: those i know OK it and/or those i have purchased/will purchase from.
The legal drinking age?: should be 18.
Suicide?: is tragic.