huh?

there are rumors circulating that jonathan brandis is dead? actually, someone found this here little space for my rambling by doing a search on his death ...

***a few minutes later***

holy shit.

according to eonline ...

PASSING: Jonathan Brandis, star of the NBC series seaQuest DSV, found dead in his Los Angeles apartment on November 12 of an apparent suicide. He was 27.

the word is that he hanged himself.

wow. jonathan was my first real actor crush ... i was infatuated. i had (well, ok, still have) the seaQuest books. i had scrapbooks. i had tape upon tape of episodes. i bought "sidekicks," for christ's sake.

and i sent him the first real fan letter i ever wrote. and received my first autograph from him (whether he signed it or not will forever be up to debate, but i know it wasn't autopenned, as i made sure i could see the indent of a ballpoint pen. i told you, i was infatuated.).

i can't believe he died ...