thoughts:

when one rehearses a monologue with a british accent over and over again, having to deliver the same monologue with an american accent is ridiculously difficult. i think i'm just going to speak in a british accent from now on.

it's been a hectic day--work followed by two classes (including the first defender class) followed by the drama picnic (thought: i miss louns) followed by auditions followed by the free press meeting. i went over to visit becca tonight, which was great.

we all spend so much time convinced that we haven't really grown all that much since arriving at college. i've been looking at the past three years and have been amazed that they've raced by in the manner they have. most of the time, i don't feel significantly different. but already, this year has shown me that we have grown up...and this change is good in some ways, and sad in others. i'll be honest, i miss the way things used to be a lot of the time, the faces that were a constant part of my life, and things that i never thought would change. but they have, and they could never be that way again because i've changed. and, while things are rough at times, i've got to keep in my head that i've changed for the better. and i have great things about my life now--the good friends that i have are absolutely amazing and keep me sane, an all too difficult task sometimes. :)

other people need to remember that they're good people too. i just keep on hoping that someday, things will change yet again and the people i miss will be a part of my life again...and if they aren't, there was a reason for it.

it's just hard to keep in mind at times.