i finally downloaded some ben kweller...about damn time.

feeling rather conflicted the past couple days...on one hand, it's a bit depressing to be involved in coversations in which names are mentioned that apparently everyone knows, yet i don't. it feels a bit like i should, and therefore i wonder where the hell i've been for the past three years. was i under a rock? was i cast to stand under a sign labeled "other"? have i been missing out?

but then, on the other hand, do i really want to know them? because, while i'm sure they all have some good qualities about them somewhere, i don't feel terribly inclined to know them...if i've made it through three years without, i'll obviously survive...and the people i do know would make up for a million names without faces.

but still...it's an odd feeling to have...still strange feeling like somewhere along the way, i took a different path...i'm not sure what the hell i'm saying. i don't want superficial relationships with people--but there's nothing nicer than coming across someone in passing and getting a hug hello or being questioned about the summer and the prospects of the year.

i need to go make the rounds tomorrow or something.

it's been good to see that people are back, though. there are definitely faces that i've missed over the past few months.

i cannot believe classes start tomorrow. directing at 10:00--need to figure out if i want to take it or not. aurgh.

listening to: ben kweller, sha sha