i can do the frug

status check - peachy
background ambiance - rather quiet

it's always odd to run into someone you haven't seen/spoken to in years when you were once friends/classmates/etc. but at least then you can go through your list of mutual acquaintances or shared memories. the classic reminisce upon days gone by sort of deal. odd, but nice in its oddities - well, everything except realizing how old you've become.

but what do you say when you run into someone who hated you when you last saw/spoke to? and for whom you carry a shadow of animosity as well? the list of mutual acquaintances option is out the window, as most of the people you both knew well are also filed under either "yep, knew 'em, but i try to forget i knew 'em" or "hey, i was young and foolish, but then i went to college and learned better." and the few fun times were tainted by the multitude of backstabbing and deceit. any reminiscing makes you realize just how delusional you and everyone else were at the time.

in my case, you say hello, fearing that you'll suddenly revert to your scarred-teenage-girl mentality. you exchange pleasantries while realizing you aren't reverting to the way you were when last you interacted. instead, you see surprise and what you read as fear in the eyes that, in your memory, used to be filled with superiority and distain. and finally, you watch the person's back as the person retreats in the same way you feared you'd hurry away.

and then you feel great, happy to be unburdened with the hints of anxiety and anger that stayed with you over the years.

but you curse the fact that the surprise run-in killed the buzz you had from the drinks at dinner.

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in other news. while i might have felt like the past and present were blurring together this weekend, j.lo was keeping everything in perspective, getting married again. i was out of the loop this weekend, as i have no cable or internet at the apartment until the 17th (cable! i'm going to have cable!!!), but i'm glad she's keeping on her process of keeping off - systematically battling elizabeth taylor for the longest marital history.

it appears that saturday's red sox game is sold out, so now i'm disappointed. no dodgers for me. guess i'll have to catch them in l.a., right? plan b? how about averi? haha.

rock the vote's bus tour is coming to burlington and i'm quite pleased. i wonder if any musical performances will be tied in with it ... considering the lineup, it could be a win-win situation for yours truly. give it up for ben and jerry ...

and, finally, "keeping the faith" is a vastly understated movie. i was reminded of precisely how understated it is by my viewing last night.